February 21st, 2004
When Good Things Happen…

Is it just me or does everyone get nervous when good things happen in their lives? Now I’m not talking about a bit of nice luck. I am talking about when so many wonderful things occur it feels as if you’ve won the karmic lottery.

I spent about thirty-six hours basking in the glow of my recent accomplishments before I started to worry. Is something bad about to happen? Don’t these sort of things have to balance themselves out? The funny thing about this is the past two years have been really rough. Did I consider this while worrying? Did I think about all the sacrifice leading up to this moment?

Wait for it.

It took an email from a very nice lady and a lot of reflection on my part to realize the answer is no.

First of all, the email I received put things into perspective and let me know with a few funny lines that I wasn’t the only one who thought this way. Secondly, I considered what had happened. For some reason I’d allowed myself to forget that I reached this place by hard work. It wasn’t some kind of universal gift. I guess it’s a natural response to get nervous when a lot of positive things are happening in ones life. I guess I just wonder why I don’t react the same way when things are not going my way.

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