Archive for October, 2005

Saturday, October 22nd, 2005
Blog, Blog, Blog

Recently I’ve been asked to come up with a blog entry for Romancing the Blog. I’ve been reading this blog for a while, so I figured it shouldn’t be too hard to create an entry. (Insert cackling here.)

I have managed to write two paragraphs. That’s it. No more. After reading those two paragraphs, I realized I had no idea what point I was trying to make. You’d think I’d never written a single blog entry given the sudden difficulties. Then it hit me, I’m having performance anxiety. Geez. I didn’t even get that when I sang in bands. (shaking head) I am so worried that my entry is going to suck, I’m not sure what to write.

Have any of you experienced this? What did you do?

Friday, October 21st, 2005
Three Act Structure vs Hero’s Journey

Maybe it’s just me, but for some reason I can’t wrap my head around the Hero’s Journey. I think it’s a great book, but for some reason I have a hard time following it. My mind seems to prefer the three act structure…even if the Hero’s Journey is taking place in it. Why? No clue. It just seems to make more sense to me. This may have something to do with the fact that I pay so much attention to numbers when I write. (ie page count, word count, chapter length, etc.)

For some reason, when I break books down into chunks of 125 to 130 page sections, it’s easier for me to write. I don’t get that panic feeling that comes from trying to stare down 400 pages. It also gives me a pretty good idea where turning points need to take place. For a partial pantster/panster, that last sentence sends shudders of fear, rippling through my body. :-/ At this point, I’m surprised I am not running away screaming.

Why am I bringing this subject up now? Because I’m thinking about doing the book in a month challenge in November. I can’t do that unless I get a couple of stories charted out. Like I said earlier, I’m a ‘partial’ panster. I have a couple of really good ideas (I think), but I’m not sure exactly where the stories are going. Without that info, I won’t reach 50K in thirty days. I know they say you can write gibberish if need be, but I really don’t want to do that. I don’t mind having a few pages of crap thrown on paper, but I’d like it to at least make a little sense or I won’t be able to fix it later.

So I’m curious, if you plan to enter the ‘BIAM’, how are you preparing?

Thursday, October 20th, 2005
Thank God and Greyhounds It

Forgive me as I Snoopy dance around the room. I am BEYOND relieved to have the first draft of this novella finished. If I haven’t mentioned it before, I’ll mention it now…I am officially finished with historicals for a while. I think that was part of my writing problem. I know that makes me sound fickle, since I often get tired of contemporaries too, but it’s the truth. I need a break from history.

I’m not sure if yesterday was my most productive day, but it was certainly close. I ended up writing over 6500 words. If only I could have writing days like that everyday. 🙂

At this point, I have no idea if the story even makes sense. Right now, I don’t CARE! Have I mentioned it’s FINISHED? Bounce, bounce, bounce. I feel like Daffy Duck when he’s going off the deep end. All that’s missing is the looney laugh. It feels as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Too bad it didn’t come off my thighs instead. (wg)

How do you celebrate the completion of a story?

Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
2K Down…Forever to go…Grr

I swear this novella refuses to end. (Picture me hitting my head on my desk here.) I think I may have mentioned that I’ve been writing this book in pieces. I discovered yesterday that most of what I have left are love scenes. (Forehead bleeding now.) I didn’t realize it until yesterday. I have enough difficulty writing one love scene, but now I have at least two to write and quite possibly three. 🙁 (Wailing here.)

Before you ask, yes, I do need all those scenes because a lot is happening during the lovemaking in this book. One hero is holding back due to his perceived sins of the past, while the secondary man is trying to get a verbal acceptance out of a woman in order for him to maintain his flesh form. (He’s a gorgoyle.) Both are working toward an emotional connection. One man realizes this, while the other doesn’t until it’s too late. So I can’t skip any of them. WAAA!!!

I suppose I should look at this as a lesson to be learned. If one chooses to write books in pieces, make sure the pieces are equally distributed. (Shaking head.) Have any of you had something like this happen?

Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
Woke Up to Storms

I woke up this morning to more pieces of my story falling into place. It’s been a long time since that’s happened. (I normally get story ideas and thoughts at night right as I’m attempting to fall asleep.) I plan to strike while the iron is hot. 😉

Perhaps it was the storms that hit last night that brought me these missing pieces. Goodness knows we had some whoppers. The kind of electrical and thundering brilliance that bring you from dozing to awake in about a half second as you ponder whether your roof is about to get ripped off.

In our case, I only had a few seconds to think about that before the hail hit. :-/ How did I know it was hail? Because it was so loud that dh and I actually got out of bed to go check. Rain, to my knowledge, doesn’t feel like ice under bare feet.

Today, it’s partly sunny, but still looks like it wouldn’t take much to bring on the rain. Normally, I like storms, especially if I can stand under a porch and watch them. There’s something incredibly primal about being in one. At night, not so much. I think because you can’t see what’s coming. (And you know, if you’ve been reading my blog, how much I like to know what’s going to happen.)(wg)

What about you? Do you like standing in the rain or playing in the snow? Do you have a favorite weather phenomena?

Sunday, October 16th, 2005
Working Hard and Saying Goodbye

I’m sad that the folks left today. At least I didn’t cry all the way back from the airport. Sniffle. We’re going to miss them, but I suppose someone needs to take care of Scotland for us until we can get back there. Sigh.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about writing over the last few days, since I haven’t gotten any actual work accomplished. I’ve realized that I have finally hit the point where writing has turned into hard work. Before anyone throws rotten tomatoes at me, let me explain. For whatever reason, I’m one of those people who have had ‘certain’ things come fairly easy to them. I dabbled in music years ago and came close to getting a record deal. (Thank God and the gremlins that didn’t happen.) Shudder. I took acting classes and landed work in commercials. It was fun. I enjoyed it long enough to realize I wasn’t passionate about the work. Mind you, I did work for these things, but I didn’t work as hard as some of the people I saw around me. (There was a very large element of ‘how did I end up here’ happening.) The same can be said for the writing. I feel like I’ve been suddenly dropped into the movie Fame. Particularly, the scene where Debbie Allen (the dance instructor) says to the students that fame costs and that they are about to pay with sweat.(wg)

That’s pretty much where I’m at. I’ve finally hit the point in my writing where I have to REALLY work for the stories. (Not the ideas, thank goodness, but the stories themselves.) Let me tell you, it’s been a rude awakening for me. The funny thing is I don’t think that’s a bad thing. (Like Stephen King said, if you want to be good, you have to be prepared to work your arse off.) I think the quality of my work is getting better with each book. Am I anywhere near where I want to be? No way. I still have a tremendous amount of work ahead of me. I’m okay with that because I believe in my heart of hearts it’s worth every drop of sweat, every moment of self-doubt, every groan of frustration, and every tear that’s shed.

Whether you choose to be a writer or to do something else with your life, the passion HAS to be there. Now tell me, what are you passionate about? Painting? Photography? Caring for others?

Friday, October 14th, 2005

Went out shopping yesterday after turning in 150 books to the used bookstore. Did that even make a dent in my book pile? NO! Did that stop me from buying 9 new and used books? NO! I’m so bad. I’m telling you, it’s an addiction. (Shaking head)

Found two pairs of shoes while I was out. Well, actually, I found a lot more than that, but dh wouldn’t allow me to come home with more than two pairs. (wg) I like some of the styles coming out this year, even though many of them remind me of the eighties. My favorite pair are made by a company called Mudd. If you haven’t checked these shoes out, do so. They’re VERY comfortable in a clunky sort of way. Okay, I’ll admit I’m a tad addicted to shoes and books. I know I’m not alone in this sickness. What are you addicted to?

My dh’s folks are leaving this weekend. The time has flown by. 🙁 We’re just going to watch movies tonight and maybe do brunch tomorrow. I’ll be in and out online. If you need to get in touch, drop me an email directly. Have a great weekend.