First, I’d like to start by saying that I finally mailed my Blaze. Hallelujah! Hallelujah! Now say it twice more, but faster. *g* The manuscript is currently winging its way to Canada. Oh Canada, oh Canada…I can’t remember the rest of the words. Yes, I’m in a goofy mood. I think it’s because I’m swamped. Every time I check something off my list, something else gets added. Fun. Fun. Fun. Now to the ‘serious’ portion of the blog entry. *ggg*
As a writer, there are certain things that give me the willies. One is single title length. I so envy those writers who can lay down 400 pages without breaking a sweat. How do you do it? I don’t have a problem whipping out 80 to 90K, but as soon as I go past that page count my pulse starts to race and panic sets in. I can do it, but blood will flow–my blood.
The other fear is first person POV. Why? I have no idea, but for some reason I find writing in that POV daunting. I think it takes incredible skill to write an entire book in first person, while holding a reader’s attention. The latter is the key. I’m one of those readers who don’t like many first person books. The voice has to be ‘just so’.
Here’s my dilemma: when I write in first person, I think it’s some of my strongest and freshest writing. The characters pop off the page, the mood of the piece becomes richer and more vibrant, and I, as a writer, invest fully in the story. It’s weird, but it almost feels like a different person is doing the writing. (I told you it was weird. 😉
I don’t understand why this happens. Why can’t I experience the same thing when writing in third person? You’d think it would be easier, but it’s not. And yet, I get palpitations at the thought of writing 400 pages in first person. You’re talking about combining my two greatest writer fears. I suppose I could just put those stories aside until I’ve gained more courage as a writer. Trouble is I don’t think that would stop the little voice inside my head, daring me to try. It’s a double-edged sword.
Sometimes I think if I could just plow through a manuscript (kind of like ripping a Band-Aid off quick) it would make things easier. Then I remember how slow my writing pace is when I’m working in first person and dismiss the idea. Yes, even my writing pace changes when I switch from third person to first.
My question is what do you do when you fear what should be your greatest strength?