August 25th, 2006
Lessons in Trust

This has been a very strange year. I feel like I’ve been learning a lot of lessons. I don’t know if it’s gearing up for something or simply moving me to a new level within myself. I prefer to think of it as the latter. I’m talking about lessons in trust. (And no, I’m not referring to personal relationships.) I mean everything from trusting my ability to write a book to knowing that something is wrong with my health, even when everyone says I’m fine. Obviously, these lessons are extremes, but they all boil down to inner trust.

I didn’t realize until this year that I didn’t trust myself. I knew I didn’t trust many people (wg), but I always thought that I trusted myself. I didn’t. It’s been a rather rude awakening on my part. Unfortunately, it took a major health scare, which turned out to be okay yesterday, to make me ‘see’ the lesson in front of me. Why does it always take something major to jerk us into clarity? (shaking head) Like I said, I’m going to be fine, but none of this would’ve occurred had I simply trusted myself.

I guess my point to this entry is learn to trust yourself. Whether it’s with your writing, your relationships or your health. You know you better than anyone. Have faith in yourself. There are worse people to rely on. 🙂

12 comments to “Lessons in Trust”

  1. So so true! And take care of yourself babe! I’m glad you’re okay!

  2. Thanks Cece, I will. 🙂

  3. ((((Jordan)))) Glad all’s well. And yes, you do have to trust yourself!

  4. Thanks for the hug, Charli. 🙂

  5. 🙂 It takes a lot of faith to write. Sometimes, you lose that faith, and you make detours and U-turns to find it again. But when you do, you realise that it was always there.

  6. May, You’re right, it does take a lot of faith to write. Or in my case, stupidity. *ggg* I thought ‘how hard can it be’. 😉

  7. Interesting. I’ve always been sort of the reverse. Myself I know, and trust that I know very well. What I can do, or write, or accomplish–thatI wrestle with all the time.

    Very glad you’re okay, hon. Take good care of yourself!

  8. Raine, Thank you. 🙂 That is interesting that you trust yourself in every aspect BUT your creative abilities. Hmm…

  9. Glad there’s nothing serious. Take care, hon.

  10. Thanks Jaq!

  11. Health scares can be big wake up calls. I went through a period of panic attacks after a car wreck, 7 years ago, .. the hypnosis I went through to solve it helped me for the rest of my life! Now, I take the time to meditate and do relaxation exercises,DAILY, NO MATTER WHAT! It’s for ME!

    Glad your news is good news, and maybe some cool realizations came about too! Blessings!

  12. Thank you for the blessings, Maddie. Panic attacks are very difficult to get over. I’m glad that hypnosis worked for you. Meditation is a very good thing for your overall well-being.