RED has started to ship. Gulp! Game on.
You know I was thinking about a conversation I had the other day with a reader friend about how
I some authors see their finished work. I know I have a bad habit of being fairly self-deprecating when it comes to talking about my work. Part of it stems from my own need not to take things too seriously. The other part comes from a tiny area inside my brain that screams I’m a fraud and it’s only a matter of time before I’m discovered. I think this is fairly common with a lot of authors. There’s a part of us that truly can’t believe we’re writing and getting published. And there’s no amount of reassurances from readers, friends or family that will change that doubt. Maybe it’s part of the creative process.
My reader friend and one of my critique partners have both mentioned that I cannot see my work clearly. They told me I don’t give myself enough credit. That may be true. No one on this planet is harder on me than well, me. It’s something I’m working on. 🙄
I’m in awe when I meet writers who don’t seem to doubt their work/abilities. I can’t figure out if they’re lying, delusional, or truly that confident. I know I’ve met a lot of writers who enjoy reading their work after it’s been published. I am NOT one of them. I will probably never read RED again. I may check to make sure they took out the copyedit notes that ended up in the ARC, but other than that, no way. I’ve only managed to read two of my books, Tears of Amun and Gothic Passions once they were published. I find it painful because there are always things I want to change, make better, fix, etc.
If you’re a reader, do you think you notice the ‘little things’ or are you reading for the overall story? If you’re a writer, do you enjoy reading your work after it’s been published?