July 18th, 2017
As you might’ve noticed from the last blog post in…2016, I’ve been on a bit of a hiatus. I’d love to say it was self-imposed, but the truth is since the end of 2015 I’ve been suffering from a case of severe burnout. There are many factors that led to that state (ie writing too fast, trying to publish too often, wearing too many hats, putting off projects I’ve been wanting to work on for YEARS, etc.). The ultimate reason behind it doesn’t really matter. What matters is that it happened and it was mentally crippling. A few months after the burnout started, my Dad passed. So life’s been interesting…
I was so freaked out over not writing that I actually signed up with an online editing/coaching service. I did it, so I’d be held accountable. The truth is, that service was my last hope. I genuinely looked at it that way. I knew that if I couldn’t write using the service I was going to have to walk away from writing and do something else. What would I have done? I had no idea since I’d never imagined my life without writing. Luckily, it didn’t come to chicken farming. (Yes, that was on my list of “possible” careers, if I was forced to leave writing. If that one surprises you, you should see the rest of the list. *g)
Thanks to Author Accelerator and my weekly editor coach, I was able to write again. That’s the good news. The bad news is that I didn’t write any of the projects that you guys have been waiting so patiently for. Given all the changes to the world in the last year and a half, I needed to work on something different, something bigger, something that challenged me as a writer and hopefully made the world a better place. So I wrote a children’s fantasy novel. I plan to shop it to agents in the next couple months. It isn’t a book I feel comfortable self-publishing.
What does this all mean? I honestly don’t know. I have re-charted the books I started for you all. One has 8500 words written and the other has a couple thousand. I WANT to finish them. Really, REALLY want to finish them. I don’t want to disappoint you guys. But every time I pick those projects up to work on them, I feel a deep-seeded fear that the burnout/block will return and it scares the pajamas off me. Is it psychological? Probably, but I cannot move forward on those books until I figure out how to deal with the fear. I hope you guys understand. If you don’t, I understand. Thanks for reading.
October 2nd, 2016
Hi All, I know I’ve been pretty quiet, other than a random comment here or there on FB and Twitter, but there’s a good reason for that (and no, it’s not political 😉 excuse me while I scream into a pillow LOL). At the end of last month, I signed up with a one-on-one coaching company. This particular company isn’t for life-coaching. It’s specifically for writers, who want to work on craft and finish a book.
See I’d reached a point in my writing career where I’d SERIOUSLY questioned whether to continue. I’ve had a really bad case of writer’s block that started last summer and lasted through July of this year. To say it’s been crippling is an understatement. Life without the ‘voices’ in my head has been difficult. Couple that with the sh*t storm that is 2016 and it’s been pretty awful.
I tried everything to overcome the block (ie timers, writing at different times of day, changing stories, etc.), but nothing worked. What I did know, was that my writing wasn’t where I wanted it to be. I also knew that in order to get it to where I want it to be, I needed help. So I signed up with Author Accelerator to work one-on-one with an editor on the various craft issues I have. One of the things they ask you to do is set aside the books you have been writing and pick one of the story ideas you haven’t done a lot of work on. Believe it or not, that was hard, since I’ve been in the middle of the Pit Fighters for MONTHS.
I’ve been working with my editor for a little over thirty days and have written 10K, which for me is a frakking miracle. It’s also a LOT slower than I used to write. I’m having to relearn how to think about story, character, and craft. One of the biggest realizations is that I enjoy writing a lot more when I slow down and give the stories time to evolve.
I know there are readers out there waiting for the next books in my ongoing series. I really appreciate your patience and understanding. I know some of you have given up on me–and that’s okay. I totally get it. If one of my favorite authors stopped releasing books in a series I was looking forward to, I’d be upset, too. (I have had it happen.)
Doing this was honestly a Hail Mary for me. If this didn’t work, I was going to close everything down and walk away. (I still may close my FB pages down because I’m not entirely convinced it’s good for my mental health.) I am doing what I need to do in order to bring joy back to writing. I’m doing what I need to do to save the writer in me.
January 8th, 2016
I know I’m not the only one who cannot believe that it’s 2016 already. 2015 was a whirlwind. Much happened in my personal life–most of which was good, but still quite stressful. It has taken a while to regain my footing and find my friggin’ mojo.
I’ve been silent a long time. Part of my silence comes from a case of severe burnout that started last summer and continued through December. I know that’s not something most readers want to hear about. Writers are supposed to write and keep everything else to themselves, but truth is truth. While suffering through the crippling burnout, I took the time to reassess my career, my life, my plans. You get the picture. I think it’s important to do that from time to time. Take a look around at your life and ask yourself what aspects of it brings you joy. If very little of it does, then it’s time to make some changes.
It’s definitely time for me to make some changes, especially if I want to stay sane in this tumultuous publishing climate. (And I do want to stay sane. *gggg)
What does this mean for you dear readers?
It means I’m going to try to finish up my dangling series. I don’t want to leave anyone hanging and I certainly don’t want to disappoint anyone. I have no release dates to post. I am SO over busting my butt to try to get books finished fast. The physical cost is too much given the return. I have no idea how long the books will be or how long they’ll take to write. At this point, I’m just concentrating on writing. I am not pushing myself. I found out what happens when I do that and it wasn’t pretty. No doubt the flames can still be seen from space.
As of this writing, I am working on Pit Fighters: Control. I’d written 13K last year, but I just scrapped the entire storyline and started over a couple of weeks ago. I didn’t like where it was going and frankly, I didn’t like the heroine. Luckily, I like the new one a lot. We’ll see if that helps get the proverbial ball rolling. 🙂 Once I get things wrapped up the way I want with the various series, I’m going to step away from romance for a while to write in other genres. After thirty-five or so books, I think that’s okay to do.
I always appreciate hearing from readers (TRULY), but writing me every few weeks and demanding to know where the books are does not help ease the pressure I feel. Keep that in mind, before you fire off an email. 😉
I appreciate your patience and understanding. Enjoy the New Year!
August 18th, 2015
I hope everyone is having a good August. I’ve been trying to stay cool. I’ll get a break from the heat when I head across the pond. Looking forward to hanging in London town. Have a safe rest of the summer. XO Jordan
August 2nd, 2015
Check out the interview I did for Fallon’s Fall on Kate Hill’s Compelling Beasts Blog.
Fallon’s Fall is officially released and available at Amazon, Apple, Kobo, and Barnes & Noble.
June 25th, 2015
I love London in the summertime. You never really know what you’re going to get weather-wise in the UK, but when it’s nice, it’s genuinely beautiful. It isn’t until I get here that I realize how much I miss dappled lawns, ancient trees, cool breezes, playful fountains, and birds chirping. And although Londoners will rush by you (they’re always in a hurry), they’re quick to chat and laugh when engaged. It’s a genuine friendliness that I find refreshing.
There’s just something about this old, yet futuristic city that draws people from around the world. It certainly draws me again and again. It’s no wonder that two of my upcoming books have this barking, brilliant city as their backdrop. How does that old saying go? If you’re tired of London, you’re tired of life.
I can’t imagine ever being tired of London. Enjoy your summer.
June 17th, 2015
I promise I will get better at blogging. I know I’ve said that before, but I do mean it. I’m in the process of redesigning my website. It’s slow going because frankly I have no idea what I’m doing. LOL! Sigh. Hopefully once it’s done things will level out. In the meantime, if you want to know about upcoming books, events, and/or free reads, it’s best to sign up for my newsletter. I’m not one of those authors who send out a newsletter a month (shocker, I know). I only send them out when I have announcements to make or free reads to share.
Anyway, I’m currently in London, England. Really enjoying the change of scenery, the weather (stop laughing), and all the crazy accents. I’ve been coming here for years. It’s interesting to hear the change in the local London accent that’s taken place in the last ten years. It’s now this odd combination of typical British mixed with immigrant. What I mean by that is it’s English, but like anyone familiar with the south and New York in the states, there’s a distinctive accent change. In this case, it’s like the typical British accent has become flavored with the mix of immigrant accents that have joined the soup that is London. It’s especially prevalent in the young males of all races running about the capital. It’s going to be interesting to see how the ‘sound’ changes in another ten years. I feel like I’m fortunate to be witnessing the change in a language firsthand. Quite fascinating.
On a completely different note, I was in Foyles’ bookstore yesterday (A fantastic five story bookstore near the heart of London’s theater district.) and picked up a ‘Improve Your Handwriting’ book. Like a lot of people these days, I don’t do much long-hand writing outside of editing my books. Because of that my handwriting has become atrocious. We’re talking shaming doctors’ prescription scribbles here. I’m pretty sure five year olds could do better and a lot of them aren’t even being taught to write anymore. I don’t like that, so I’ve decided to work on improving it, if for no other reason than to be able to read my own notes. Snort!
While I’m here, I am also going through the partials in my dropbox account. I know I did this a few months back, but that was to see how old the ideas were. This time I wanted to count how many partials I have written. There are currently 27 partials sitting on my computer. They range from a page to over 15K in length. For those without an author decoder ring on, that’s 27 books that I’ve started and haven’t finished yet. :-O
Today I plan on plotting a few of those stories. I noticed while going through them that I have large chunks of the plots done on some, but they’re missing a few vital pieces that prevent me from finishing them. (I used to write by the seat of my pants (and can still at a push), but I find the stories are much stronger if I take the time to plot.) That doesn’t mean that the stories won’t change once I get the plot done. They often do. I read something the other day that Ilona Andrews wrote about her/their writing process. She said that her plots don’t change because for her storytelling is a dictatorship. What she says, goes. I LOVED that. But my brain don’t always work that way. Of course, that’s probably why her stories are so frickin’ amazing. 🙂 Anyway, those are my plans. Once I get a decent amount done on them, I’ll work on craft. Show vs. Tell here I come. *ggg